I miss you

I feel like my chest is gonna burst open if I don't tell you this, at the same time that I don't know if this is gonna hurt you or make you feel bad or anything. I don't mean any harm, I just need a place to put this, hopping it'll make my chest feels less tight. I don't even know if you are gonna read this, it will be my own Schrödinger's cat, maybe you did, maybe you didn't.

I don't know how I feel about you right now...

But I know I love the memory of you

The boy who swore would never change, 

Who said would love me forever, 

You, who couldn't be happy if I was not happy

My brave loyal knight.

The boy who made me feel pretty no matter how I looked.

Who accepted me by who I am, flaws and all.

The boy who made me feel whole and not alone, even when he was not with me. 

You, who cared so much you could sense whenever something was wrong before I even knew it myself.

Forever my king and ruler of my heart.

The boy who made me lust as I never had. 

The boy who earned my trust so much I could let myself go and jump. 

The boy who made me fly. 

I love that boy. 

I love him so much it hurts. 

I'll always love him.

My one and only,

First Love

For all that I thank you.

No matter what happens with us.